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(who they've been ) be my valentour. i mean valentine [14 Feb 2005|03:53pm] i stole that from relient k's be my valentour. which i'm not allowed to go to see because my parents won't let me because of a bad report card. whatever, i'm still going. anyway, it's valentine's day, and i have a valentine! i don't mean just drew, my southern sweetie from texas who will be here in a mere three days, three days, i'm so excited. that could get me started on something different, because i'm dying for a drew hug! but this morning i got my own valentine, a boy named steve lee who i positively adore. he's gorgeous, not to mention really cute: tall, asian so he's got black hair which is always immaculately spiked and styled, nice dark eyes, a fabulous fashion sense that would cause many to think him gay, and he's super-devoted to god. and i'm totally into him. i've liked him like a billion times, especially since he's the hottest guy in our grade, not saying much, but damn. so tonight's a total bust, babysitting, dinner with my mom, and then homework. luckily tomorrow is a field trip with my english class, we'll spend the whole day out at bud lake watching macbeth, which i've already seen how many times, i mean come on mr. jackson. and then wednesday i don't have to go to school because of mock trial regionals, which i'm totally stressing about. we need to win, we want to win. we just need ricky to suck a whole lot less, and i need to stop giving attitude. alright, call me later guys because i can't go online- the future mrs. steve lee

( 1 hate | who they've been ) note [22 Dec 2004|10:28pm] ho ho yo. no one notes me anymore. that's not cool. anyway, it's almost christmas and i'm really excited. next week i'm going out with that kid from wayne, justin. he's such a sweetie. but he's certainly no chris. ratnanjali said she was going to pay chris ten bucks to stand outside my locker with a bow on his head. i'd die. i told marissa i wanted chris for christmas, but only if he was all wrapped up with a bow, and whipped cream. haha. i got some presents today, including my hot orange penguin boxers zac gave brian (in other words katresa gave me) and i wore them on top of my pants and it kicked butt. i hate the torchia twins. they're such morons. die bitches. alright, well now i'm christmas-y again. later emily clause -note!

(who they've been ) sorry. [20 Dec 2004|09:57pm] i guess i should apologize. i freaked out the other day. i still blame hormones, which played a big role in my spaz-mosity. plus i'm totally getting over this guy. who shall remain nameless. but you all know who i mean because he's all i've talked about for like three months but now he's a freaking jerk. anyway, i owe a lot of people apologies for spazzing, but i don't think that what i said was wrong, i'm just sorry for being such an ass about it. anyway, today was good. it's almost christmas. i got a present from this girl today, but we're not friends. awkward (waggles finger) haha. will is so cute! yea no one gets it, but whatever. its a vbs thing dawg. anyway, i'll catch you all on the flipside. peace- e.mac(like j.lo hahaha)

( 1 hate | who they've been ) hating life [18 Dec 2004|05:32pm] i hate life. i hate people. i hate society. i hate my parents. i hate my friends. i hate school. i hate my teachers. i hate favoritism. but most of all, i hate being left out. i hate when people write notes to their "new best friend," but not to me, even though i've totally been friends with them way longer and never received a note. i hate when people call other people to come over or sleepover or go to a concert or go see a movie or hang out or go to the mall or go out for coffee or go away for the day, but my phone never rings. i hate when people can't even call to see how i'm doing when i'm sick from school, but i never forget to call them when they're out, to see if they're feeling better or if they need any homework from our classes we have together. i hate how everyone has a little "clique" and i definitively do not reside in one of them, just because i'm not goth enough or not hanson enough or not smart enough or anything. i hate how i'm an outcast, and i hate how i don't know how i got to be an outcast, because most of the people i'm friends with i have been a really good friend to, and i got them really good expensive christmas presents at that. i hate how people can make a list of their "best friends" and name every single one of their friends except me, even though i considered them one of my best friends in the whole world. i hate how life is falling apart. i hate everyone, everything, everywhere. i never knew words could hurt this much. maybe it's my hormones, and i know it's a pathetic excuse, but it's the one i'm taking. but still, words hurt when it comes from someone i hate, but someone i love as a friend, now that just kills me. i just wish i knew who my real friends are. right now, the only friend i know i have is ratnanjali. if you read this ratnanjali, please disregard everything up there cuz none of it applies to you. i don't know what i'd do without you and i don't know how i'll ever pay you back. thanks a million for helping me realize that i have people out there that care about me, or at least one person. for anyone else who actually cares about me, as if there are many, i cried myself to sleep last night, curled up in the fetal position, under my blue blanket, clutching my favorite stuffed animal and drew's hat, since it's the only thing of his i have. i can't wait until he comes up here in february. unfortunately, i won't talk to him until after the new year since that lucky son of a bad word is down in st. thomas for three weeks. i didn't even get to say good-bye. he sent me a bracelet for christmas. i love that kid. then i guess i should change my statement: i have two real friends right now. cuz i know he'll love me no matter what. is that what this is? is this love? or is it a lack of hate? is there even a difference between the two? steven curtis chapman has an awesome song called "it's all about love" and i'll leave you with it. "i hope with all this information buzzing through our brains that we will not let our hearts forget the most important thing it's love love love love love it's all about love love love love love everything else comes down to this nothing any higher on the list than love it's all about love it's like something's lurking deep inside that can't seem to be satisfied but life was not supposed to be lived this way." maybe people should remember this before they say something (or write something) that they know will hurt someone. going back to my bed. emily P.S. random fact of the day: i'm not getting my silver ring from silver ring thing. for the clueless: it's a ring you wear to show you're for abstinence and stuff. i think it's pretty cool, but you have to SIGN an abstinence vow. i can't lie on paper that. life's got its turns. and i'm not making any promises that i know i can't control. i was planning on getting one and making my parents pay for it cuz i could use a nice nifty ring, and then throwing it out when i got to college. cuz we all know college is a crazy place. i haven't made up my mind about this kinda stuff yet, and i don't wanna have to sign something and then totally betray it. that's just mean. and evil. but as mr. jackson would say, "there's no such thing as good and evil, emily. bitch bitch bitch." he is such a dick. on that note, i'll leave you all with a smile, if i turn this everlasting frown upside down. nah, not happening.

(who they've been ) LOS REGALOS [17 Dec 2004|08:17pm] i'm incredibly bored cuz there's only eight days til christmas falalalala. anyway, i'll make a short list of some of the things i recently purchased. for my daddy i bought a massage while we're down in florida, and a box of everlasting gobstoppers. my dad is gonna freak. that massage cost me big bucks. and i'm hoping to steal a purple gobstopper. and then i bought my mom broadway tickets to the lion king, a magnetic notepad, and my big fat greek wedding on video. she can't operate a dvd player so i thought i'd keep it simple. as usual i'm giving my fat cat sam (short for samantha) a nice big ball of wrapping paper. in other words, when i rip off my gifts, she can have what's left. i'm so sure i have money for my cat. i can't afford anyone's presents. i got my grandma a calling card, because she's too cheap to ever use the cell phone we got her and she basically refuses to call my uncle in oregon (but he's a jerk so i don't really blame her). i got my fabulous fantastiriffic aunt a huge bath set that smells like creme brulee or something, and it's got bath gel, and lotion, and shimmer powder with a puffy thingy, a lufa, a dream mask, and this cool flowery bath petal thinger. it's so nifty. i got my other grandparents this kick-butt nightlight with a thomas kinkade picture on the back. they love unique nightlights so i dropped a good seventeen dollars on that when i was at the palisades getting my prom dress. hehe. i got my favorite uncle louie a page-a-day calendar with all these crossword puzzles on it. he should have fun with them when he's on the road. for the clueless: he's a truck driver. i got my yankee-loving aunt this ice cube tray that's kinda odd. but awesome. when you freeze the ice cubes, they come out like the NY symbol. we're the only yankee fans in the family. that's awkward. damn mets. jeter's hotter than piazza. duh. anyway, i got my oldest cousin matthew, he's fourteen and a big reader a book. he saw my play dracula and loved it, so i got him the ook. he'll be so happy.i got a bunch of other stuff that i don't have the room or time to write out because...surprise guys! i actually have a life! i know, what a shocker. alright, later~ emily

(who they've been ) *shocked face* [07 Dec 2004|10:16pm] let's say my weekend kicked some serious donkey, as my friend kate puts it. if you don't get it, you're either marissa or dumb or blonde. just kidding marissa. but seriously. on friday i saw RENT in the city. it was the best play ever, again. drew lachey from 98 degrees was in it...and i met him! i almost passed out! he is so hot! i even got a hug! and i met the guy...jeremy kushnier...who played roger the first time i saw it. it was absolutely amazing. i even have a picture and autographs to prove it! and then on saturday i was in the city and i met Ami from survivor this year! she was so nice and took pictures with me and she gave me this nifty sparkle thingy. oh and yes guys i did cry when angel died. i always do. emily

(who they've been ) happy tofurkey day [25 Nov 2004|10:13pm] that's right guys...its the dual celebration of the obesity of americans and the mass genocide of native americans through the "generosity" of the pilgrims who gave them small-pox infested blankets as a thank-you which really was a successful attempt to kill the indian population. yea i hate thanksgiving, or t-giving as christina puts it. it's tofurkey day for her! that is so cool. she's a vegetarian if you haven't caught on. if i liked tofu i would totally have one. so we went out like freaks that my family is and then i got to pick up my pictures from behind the scenes of dracula and from meeting the hot culinary icon heartthrob known only as rocco dispirito. and his mom. not even kidding. he's such a mama's boy but i don't care he's just that hot. anyway. i put all those in those new gorgeous albums i got and then i labeled the last two albums but not the pictures yet. i'll do that some other rainy day. so this weekend's the cast party and i am so pumped. but better than that tomorrow i'm going to the palisades (yes i'm crazy) to get my prom dress from jessica mcclintock. i picked it out a while ago with alison and now it's on hold. i love it it's so pretty! other than that my life is pretty coolish i suppose. i really can't wait for the cast party but first i need to write a paper on chaucer for english. oh lots of good news. i made honor roll and i'm academically eligible for national honor society. i'm stoked shall we say. emily

(who they've been ) LETS HEAR IT FOR THE PLAY (PLEASE SCREAM WOO HERE) [13 Nov 2004|04:04pm] OMG YOU GUYS WE DID IT! we pulled it off! other than the whole punching the mirror thing, it was almost perfect. oh and the fact that i'm a moron and ran into some random metal thing and ripped my costume, thank god for mary kate. anyway, so we did a good job. i got my own curtain call! my own bow! all by myself! i was so excited! clay toye aka the coolest kid ever in the world was screaming my name and made my day. then we were getting changed and i wanted to get the heck out of my cupcake dress so i'm tugging it off and someone yells: yea mackin take it off, get naked! so we were going WOO! so we started yelling stuff: LET'S HEAR IT FOR GETTING NAKED! and everyone would respond WOO! LET'S HEAR IT FOR THE HOTNESS OF NICOLE AND ALISON! WOO! LET'S HEAR IT FOR THE SEXIEST DRACULA EVER! WOO! LET'S HEAR IT FOR JULIA LIKING HER BRA! WOO!then marcy walks in and is like WTF? and i'm like LET'S HEAR IT FOR MARCY HAVING NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON! WOO! LET'S HEAR IT FOR BEING COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS!WOO! it was so stupid but it was more fun than ever. my mommy and daddy and my aunt suzanne and aunt debbie came last night. tonight my Grandmere, Grammy, Papa, Uncle Louie, my parental units, and my cousins Matthew and Andrew are coming. i really can't wait. my mommy made cookies again. they're soooo good. anyway, i'll see you guys tonight. thanks for an absolutely amazing experience. i won't ever forget a single second of it. later- miss mina

(who they've been ) wow [08 Nov 2004|10:16pm] wow. one scene really sucks. we need to pull it together. but still. i cannot wait for dracula this weekend. alison and i were having fights and competitions today over who got to be jim's girlfriend. quite amusing it was. she won, but only because i gave up because i wanted to go dance and get the scene over with. so ryan's my boyfriend instead, which is cool cuz he's funny as hell. plus i get dave soule and two is better than one in your face you evil anaemic harlot. or however you spell it. for everyone who doesn't get this aka everyone besides me and alison- its a palisades mall trip joke. and prevention. okay well manana is the last day for ticket sales. let me know if you want tickets and ill hook you up- peace mackin

( 1 hate | who they've been ) *Showing any sign of ever making sense* [05 Nov 2004|11:42am] this will not make any sense. because i'm a random person i was going through my jewelry and i found my *MACKINIT* necklace and i started thinkin about camp and how joe used to call me miss mackin and how much i miss him and the rest of the wydaca girls: meghan (dinner), kitty-cat-catherine, michaela, jillian the opal girl, steph, katie-bear, amandilah the arabian wildchild, and emiliah. sigh emiliah we had the best times. anyway...yes and this one is for jillian: my cat barks, but only on tuesdays. yes. this is the randomness of me and my life. i watched the karate kid this morning. that's a super cool movie. oh anyone who knows anything knows that my title is from "More than Useless" from the love of my life "Mmhmm." anyway...i'm a huge loser and i watch survivor ~yes jillian with my survivor buff~ and last night was good because there was a lot of betrayal and they finally kicked off the whiny rory. so i cannot wait for a bunch of prank phone calling at play practice today. we're gonna call hooked on phonics today. i wonder what we'll say to them. we had so much fun screwing with the people in florida. morons. oh yea i was looking at cool jillians picture website and i found the picture of katresa's cake and now i'm searching for that really hot picture of brian where he looks like larry curran. in other words really burned out. haha. good times guys. oh i'm getting pics developed today! spirit week baby! alright im out~ miss mackin~

(who they've been ) today was funny [04 Nov 2004|10:06pm] today was funny. see above. oh my god i laughed so hard. we had a massive play practice and dave soule and ryan smith were prank calling places. they called this directory thing and called a mattress store trying to order a cheesburger. and then we called medieval times. we called new jersey, california, and florida and maybe tennesee or some other random place. the people in florida were dumb. it was so funny. we had the best conversation with this one lady. we were like how many people does it seat and shes like 1200 and we're like oh well we have a party of 1207. thats unfortunate. and then we were like no photography. we're amish. and then ryan pretended to beat me up. and it was incredibly funny. i like dracula practice. tech sunday should be fun, but in the least, tolerable. peace

( 1 hate | who they've been ) this is it [02 Nov 2004|07:08pm] this is it guys. i'm in love. i am in pure unadulterated passionate love. and for all of you who think you know what i'm talking about, you're right, but this is something new. yes something. "Mmhmm" came out today! i'm the most happiest person in the entire world. it's amazing. dracula practice was funnier than usual today because alison has to make out with mike and kurt. that little whore. i'm kinda glad i didn't get lucy now. i mean mike's not bad, but kurt is my co-host, and i don't know i love him in a platonic sense. like a very mentally disturbed brother. because kurt is mentally disturbed like that. anyway, life is super-hectic and such because i have so much going on. only one more day of school this week! then katresa's taking me to the mall on thursday for christmas shopping and then the fabulousness of dracula practice. a massive dracula practice. alison might take me into the city on saturday for some no-good-reason shopping. give me a shout if you want to come/meet up since we have a four-day weekend all you cool people! later

( 1 hate | who they've been ) i stole this hehe... [01 Nov 2004|06:57pm] I stole this from pierce. post me if you want. which you better. Y = Yes N = No M = Maybe, depends * = Already Done O = Decline to Answer ( ) go out (to a club for example) with me? ( ) give me your number? ( ) let me kiss you? ( ) watch a movie with me? ( ) let me take you out to dinner? ( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere? ( ) be my girlfriend/boyfriend? ( ) listen to me if I called you, even if you were out with all of your friends? ( ) buy me a drink if I didn't have money? ( ) take me home for the night? ( ) sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? anyway, today was insane with babysitting and such. i'm bored so gimme a call for the sake of my sanity~ Emily

( 1 hate | who they've been ) busy [31 Oct 2004|12:30pm] happy halloween all you losers out there! i was going to be a teenie bopper for halloween and pull out my *nsync shirt and paint *nsync on my forehead and make a sign that says "I LOVE YOU JUSTIN" or something like that, but jillian nixed the idea. then i was gonna be a hanson mmbopper with my hanson tank top and hanson on my forehead and a sign that says MMMAN MEAT hahahaha jillian, but no. so i'm gonna wander aimlessly around fayson with the crew. maybe i'll even call nick to chill with us (wink wink jillian). this week is gonna be crazy. i have four hour dracula rehearsals every day, plus my usual babysitting, and a chocolate cooking class. don't even get me started on how it's almost the end of the marking period and i'm totally trying to pull good grades in all my classes. which isn't gonna happen. leave me one about tonight. later- emily

( 1 hate | who they've been ) coolness [30 Oct 2004|04:48pm] ok everyone who's reading this: special thanks to the coolest kid in the world: pierce from the switchfoot concert for making my awesome format. speaking of format, i saw the format in concert last night with switchfoot. they weren't bad. i got hit in the head with one of their drumsticks. that was cool. and right after the format, i met pierce (see above for his amount of coolness) and his buddy kevin. he looks just like chris affinito from the sophomore class, yes lauren that's the kid in the red shirt on day 4 lunch, and everyone who knows me knows that he's only the hottest guy ever. with the exception of brian pittman, and ashton kutcher. but that's assumed. but shhh cuz pierce doesn't know all this. yea i'm bored. later

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